I’m in love with the great notion of endless love flowing between two people. In old age and wisdom they grow and in death they part only physically, for they loved so hard and strong that they imprint on the heart and soul.

What if I loved you, and you loved me? What a wonderful world it would be. 

I am unsure about my future, therefore I am unsure about myself. 

Sometimes idk why I try so hard to keep friendships and relationships when I should probably try harder like applying to jobs to improve my life and overall well being, because no one can give me security like I can give myself.

I have a feeling you are the love of my life, but I fear I might not be yours.

There are many things that terrify me. The fact that I’m graduating and have no clue where I will be in the next few months or jobs I may have. The amount of debt I will need to pay off for that education. Whether or not I will ever get to travel like I have always dreamed of doing. But the thing that worries me the most is how uncontrollably strong my feelings for you are and that there is nothing I can do about it. That’s what keeps me up at night.

I just need to be patient and understanding. It’s easier said than done, but I’ll do it because I care.